Tuesday, June 19, 2007
Today Isabel brought me along for lunch at Canteen 1 with Shear and Geraldine! That's Shear at the back by the way. And i'm the cute one in front.
Argh i know i'm lovable but don't eat me along with that chicken rice, Shear!
Argh Geraldine decided that i'll make a good side dish for her Yong Tou Foo too!
Don't eat me! Damn you cow killers!
Ahhh just look at those unrecognizable stuff in Shear's mouth somebody help me!
Here's my chance to run!
I have to cross two mountains...
1 Mount Pepsi...
Finally reaching the top of Mount Pepsi to reunite with my dear....
Isabel the saviour of all cows! Yay!
Wahhhh *faint*
moo the moo moo cow adverture.
Hi i'm Moo the lovable moo moo cow! I belong to my wonderful master isabel!
Today Isabel brought me along for lunch at Canteen 1 with Shear and Geraldine! That's Shear at the back by the way. And i'm the cute one in front.
Argh i know i'm lovable but don't eat me along with that chicken rice, Shear!
Argh Geraldine decided that i'll make a good side dish for her Yong Tou Foo too!
Don't eat me! Damn you cow killers!
Ahhh just look at those unrecognizable stuff in Shear's mouth somebody help me!
Here's my chance to run!
I have to cross two mountains...
1 Mount Pepsi...
Finally reaching the top of Mount Pepsi to reunite with my dear....
Isabel the saviour of all cows! Yay!
Wahhhh *faint*
Labels: ehhh weird
looked up to the sky at 6/19/2007 02:02:00 AM
Saturday, June 16, 2007
I could hardly recongise Kai in his uniform and without his hair. But i'm really glad to attend his graduation ceremony cause he look absolutely like an ah beng-turns-pastor in that graduation gown.
Anyway had a good time with him and i'm missing him alot now... :/
After sending Kai off after lunch with his Pa, i quickly hide in the office in the whole day and prayed that i won't bump into any of those ex-'classmates'.
I'm really heipi for them... But i wish we ARE classmates, not just stranger for now.
I wish i was part of them.
In fact i wish i was home so i cried my heart out cause it feels really terrible to be left out, to be forgotten, to not belong to anywhere...
And that my absence would make alot people feel more comfortable.
I wish i'm graduating too. I wish i belong somewhere. The more i think about it the more i wanna skip the whole ceremony. But i crave for it, just a simple graduation ceremony so my Pa could witness and take photos with my friends.
What friends? Haha. Everybody will be gone with their cliques and nobody will remember this loser cross leveler.
Dearest God, i seek comforts and reassurance in the plans you already have for me and that everything will be fine. I pray earnestly to You, my mighty saviour that everything... Will be okie...
I just want you to know that i'm still praying and thinking about you... But i don't know what to help except to get out of your sights.
..... I don't suppose you remember anything good about me eh?
Runaway with my heart
Runaway with my hope
Runaway with my love
Runaway... When are you gonna stay?
I know i've been rather emo and touchy these days... But all i need is your understanding and a hug.
I'm looking onwards to You, my universe...
I'm seeking shelter under your feathered wings that everything will be okie...
Runaway
Yesterday was Kai's graduation... As well as the mass communication cohort which i should belong to.
I could hardly recongise Kai in his uniform and without his hair. But i'm really glad to attend his graduation ceremony cause he look absolutely like an ah beng-turns-pastor in that graduation gown.
Anyway had a good time with him and i'm missing him alot now... :/
After sending Kai off after lunch with his Pa, i quickly hide in the office in the whole day and prayed that i won't bump into any of those ex-'classmates'.
I'm really heipi for them... But i wish we ARE classmates, not just stranger for now.
I wish i was part of them.
In fact i wish i was home so i cried my heart out cause it feels really terrible to be left out, to be forgotten, to not belong to anywhere...
And that my absence would make alot people feel more comfortable.
I wish i'm graduating too. I wish i belong somewhere. The more i think about it the more i wanna skip the whole ceremony. But i crave for it, just a simple graduation ceremony so my Pa could witness and take photos with my friends.
What friends? Haha. Everybody will be gone with their cliques and nobody will remember this loser cross leveler.
Dearest God, i seek comforts and reassurance in the plans you already have for me and that everything will be fine. I pray earnestly to You, my mighty saviour that everything... Will be okie...
I just want you to know that i'm still praying and thinking about you... But i don't know what to help except to get out of your sights.
..... I don't suppose you remember anything good about me eh?
Runaway with my heart
Runaway with my hope
Runaway with my love
Runaway... When are you gonna stay?
I know i've been rather emo and touchy these days... But all i need is your understanding and a hug.
I'm looking onwards to You, my universe...
I'm seeking shelter under your feathered wings that everything will be okie...
Labels: emo, thoughts and reflection
looked up to the sky at 6/16/2007 01:43:00 AM
Friday, June 15, 2007
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
6. Don't lie
Opening Credits:
Akon - Tired Of Runnin
HAR WTH!?
Waking Up:
Krystal Meyers - The Situation
First Day of School:
Avril Lavigne - Run Away
That should be for 'middle of the school term'
Falling in Love:
Fireflight - You Decide
Getting it on:
南拳媽媽 - 水晶蜻蜓
Fight Song:
South park - Kyle's Mom Is A Bitch
WAHAHAHAHA What a fighting song sia, BITACH!
Breaking Up:
Rihanna Feat. Corey Gunz - If It's Lovin' That You Want, Pt. 2
.......... More like hooking up song...
Prom:
南拳媽媽 - 槍與玫瑰
Life:
The Killers - This River Is Wild
Yeah!
Mental Breakdown:
Panic! At The Disco - Intermission
Driving:
東方茱麗葉 - 幸福的手稿
If i listen to this when i'm driving i think i'll fall asleep...
Flashback:
Green Day - American Idiot
LOL.
Wedding:
Melanie C - Ga Ga
This should come up for 'Breaking Up'.
Birth of child:
龚诗嘉 - 再一次拥有
I don't think i wanna 再一次拥有 the child-birth experience.
Final Battle:
Hillsong United - What the World Will Never Take
WOOT!
Death Scene:
Disney - Part Of Your World, "The Little Mermaid"
Hahahahaha.
Funeral Song:
Hillsong United - Hallelujah
That's more like it. :)
I concluded that this i tunes thingy is a total crap. But a fun one. ;)
I think with the exception of fighting song, life song and funeral song, the others are plain BS. Why aren't there any S.H.E songs man?
I let myself be sincere.
1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
6. Don't lie
Opening Credits:
Akon - Tired Of Runnin
HAR WTH!?
Waking Up:
Krystal Meyers - The Situation
First Day of School:
Avril Lavigne - Run Away
That should be for 'middle of the school term'
Falling in Love:
Fireflight - You Decide
Getting it on:
南拳媽媽 - 水晶蜻蜓
Fight Song:
South park - Kyle's Mom Is A Bitch
WAHAHAHAHA What a fighting song sia, BITACH!
Breaking Up:
Rihanna Feat. Corey Gunz - If It's Lovin' That You Want, Pt. 2
.......... More like hooking up song...
Prom:
南拳媽媽 - 槍與玫瑰
Life:
The Killers - This River Is Wild
Yeah!
Mental Breakdown:
Panic! At The Disco - Intermission
Driving:
東方茱麗葉 - 幸福的手稿
If i listen to this when i'm driving i think i'll fall asleep...
Flashback:
Green Day - American Idiot
LOL.
Wedding:
Melanie C - Ga Ga
This should come up for 'Breaking Up'.
Birth of child:
龚诗嘉 - 再一次拥有
I don't think i wanna 再一次拥有 the child-birth experience.
Final Battle:
Hillsong United - What the World Will Never Take
WOOT!
Death Scene:
Disney - Part Of Your World, "The Little Mermaid"
Hahahahaha.
Funeral Song:
Hillsong United - Hallelujah
That's more like it. :)
I concluded that this i tunes thingy is a total crap. But a fun one. ;)
I think with the exception of fighting song, life song and funeral song, the others are plain BS. Why aren't there any S.H.E songs man?
Labels: ehhh weird
looked up to the sky at 6/15/2007 04:13:00 PM
Wednesday, June 13, 2007
It has been the 7th day since Kai has left for Tekong... But i'm kinda heipi. It feels like a blessing in disguise, despite all the emo-ness and loneliness (sorry people :/) without him by my side, i finally have an even clearer idea of his status in my heart. I'm pretty glad that this separation has strengthen our relationship.
Kai on his way to Tekong.
All i could say is, thank you God, for making sure that there's nothing to worry about, and that He'll make sure that everything will be fine. Though i'm kinda lonely and lost without Kai by my side, i'm glad to have my beloved friends by my side to keep me company..
Had this sudden terrible leg aching even though i'm pretty much a lazy person. It's really very weird suffer from muscle aching when i didn't even exercise. :/ Almost gotten into a fight with the people at the clinic too. Hate the auntie there man. Remind me to create more trouble for her the next time i visit the clinic. BAH.
Suffer from terrible mood swings and all for the entire weekend... Mainly because Kai wasn't around and i felt very lost and misunderstood without his usual tolerance and patience with me. It's a really... 'jian / cheap' way to find out his importance, but i'm just glad enough to know it now and i promise to treasure what i have now.
It might sound really mushy... But i'm really heipi now. I have great friends and my family with me, plus a wonderful companion now. Even though he couldn't be by my side most of the time, just a simple gesture like a call from him, or listening to his voice mail's message would really cheer me up so much. I'm just really glad that... I'm finally moving along and devoting to the guy who loved me so much.
It really mean alot to me. Somehow all this while i couldn't really forgive myself, and i'm kinda still trapped in the past. But now, i feel freed. I'm really so heipi... :)
And on other good news, we celebrated Yan's birthday along with the Tous and Jansen (are you heipi that i'm calling you by your english name!?) and Seamusss! Yan accompanied me to the botanic garden for my photojournalism shooting before we headed down to Cine to get my new 'cow-like deers' bag *HAHAHHAHA jump* and then to Marina Square.
I think i could almost declared bankruptcy all thanks to our beloved Yeong Xue Yan's wonderful pressie *wink* and the basin-size of creamy udon at Waraku. And i have to tolerate all the beef-eating and cow insults from Jansen... AH!!!
Candid shoots!
I really don't mind sitting there all night and watch the sun rise again with you guys.. :)
But i really had fun chilling by the Esplanade! Jansen and Fang have to leave early for home so the rest of us headed down to The Cathy for late night movie - Shrek 3! It was kinda funny... But i guess i still have to catch the previous 2 movies to really know what it's talking about. But all in all i hope you have a good birthday Yan!
Fang has also graduated from Ngee Ann with flying colours yesterday! Just wanna tell you that i'm really heipi and proud to have a friend like you and i'm pretty sure your speech didn't sounded like a song. If not... Isn't it better to be entertained by a non-monotonous speech? Lol. :D
It also got me thinking that if i hadn't deferred, i would have been graduating this Thursday too... Sometimes i'm still pretty sad at the thought of it, having to graduated with a cohort that i'm not exactly close or can relate to. I think i might not even attend the graduation ceremony... After all, how could i enjoy the graduation ceremony without having a sense of belonging or friends whom i really belong to? But i guess God will have his own plan and we'll just have to wait and see. :)
And in other news, Nasheng, Tze Hong and Weijie will be enlisting for National Service this week too... Feels kinda weird to know that my childhood friends are finally on their journey to become real man! It feels like yesterday when we're still playing childish games and all *heh heh*... I really can't wait to see them in their uniform, shaved head... Basically, can't wait to see them as men. :)
Woah look at the time and i have to be in school by 9am. I'm dead meat!!!
Heipi 20th birthday Yan!
It's 3.00 am in the morning and i'm feeling kinda.. Hmm high? Heh Heh because in a few more hours i'll get to pick Kai up for his graduation on thursday! Can't wait to see his shaved head!
It has been the 7th day since Kai has left for Tekong... But i'm kinda heipi. It feels like a blessing in disguise, despite all the emo-ness and loneliness (sorry people :/) without him by my side, i finally have an even clearer idea of his status in my heart. I'm pretty glad that this separation has strengthen our relationship.
Kai on his way to Tekong.
All i could say is, thank you God, for making sure that there's nothing to worry about, and that He'll make sure that everything will be fine. Though i'm kinda lonely and lost without Kai by my side, i'm glad to have my beloved friends by my side to keep me company..
Had this sudden terrible leg aching even though i'm pretty much a lazy person. It's really very weird suffer from muscle aching when i didn't even exercise. :/ Almost gotten into a fight with the people at the clinic too. Hate the auntie there man. Remind me to create more trouble for her the next time i visit the clinic. BAH.
Suffer from terrible mood swings and all for the entire weekend... Mainly because Kai wasn't around and i felt very lost and misunderstood without his usual tolerance and patience with me. It's a really... 'jian / cheap' way to find out his importance, but i'm just glad enough to know it now and i promise to treasure what i have now.
It might sound really mushy... But i'm really heipi now. I have great friends and my family with me, plus a wonderful companion now. Even though he couldn't be by my side most of the time, just a simple gesture like a call from him, or listening to his voice mail's message would really cheer me up so much. I'm just really glad that... I'm finally moving along and devoting to the guy who loved me so much.
It really mean alot to me. Somehow all this while i couldn't really forgive myself, and i'm kinda still trapped in the past. But now, i feel freed. I'm really so heipi... :)
And on other good news, we celebrated Yan's birthday along with the Tous and Jansen (are you heipi that i'm calling you by your english name!?) and Seamusss! Yan accompanied me to the botanic garden for my photojournalism shooting before we headed down to Cine to get my new 'cow-like deers' bag *HAHAHHAHA jump* and then to Marina Square.
I think i could almost declared bankruptcy all thanks to our beloved Yeong Xue Yan's wonderful pressie *wink* and the basin-size of creamy udon at Waraku. And i have to tolerate all the beef-eating and cow insults from Jansen... AH!!!
Candid shoots!
I really don't mind sitting there all night and watch the sun rise again with you guys.. :)
But i really had fun chilling by the Esplanade! Jansen and Fang have to leave early for home so the rest of us headed down to The Cathy for late night movie - Shrek 3! It was kinda funny... But i guess i still have to catch the previous 2 movies to really know what it's talking about. But all in all i hope you have a good birthday Yan!
Fang has also graduated from Ngee Ann with flying colours yesterday! Just wanna tell you that i'm really heipi and proud to have a friend like you and i'm pretty sure your speech didn't sounded like a song. If not... Isn't it better to be entertained by a non-monotonous speech? Lol. :D
It also got me thinking that if i hadn't deferred, i would have been graduating this Thursday too... Sometimes i'm still pretty sad at the thought of it, having to graduated with a cohort that i'm not exactly close or can relate to. I think i might not even attend the graduation ceremony... After all, how could i enjoy the graduation ceremony without having a sense of belonging or friends whom i really belong to? But i guess God will have his own plan and we'll just have to wait and see. :)
And in other news, Nasheng, Tze Hong and Weijie will be enlisting for National Service this week too... Feels kinda weird to know that my childhood friends are finally on their journey to become real man! It feels like yesterday when we're still playing childish games and all *heh heh*... I really can't wait to see them in their uniform, shaved head... Basically, can't wait to see them as men. :)
Woah look at the time and i have to be in school by 9am. I'm dead meat!!!
Labels: haha hoho, heipi birthday, photos, thoughts and reflection
looked up to the sky at 6/13/2007 03:00:00 AM
Friday, June 8, 2007
What's the point of going to the doctor, spend 26 bucks just mainly for that piece of MC if i'm all well and fine?
Think i have alot money to spend is it?
Can't you just be more considerate? Or nicer? Is that very hard?
Can't you just show more concern rather than just call me for what you want, especially when i'm sick?
Go away.
What's the point of going to the doctor if you still think i can still perform as per normal?
What's the point of going to the doctor, spend 26 bucks just mainly for that piece of MC if i'm all well and fine?
Think i have alot money to spend is it?
Can't you just be more considerate? Or nicer? Is that very hard?
Can't you just show more concern rather than just call me for what you want, especially when i'm sick?
Go away.
Labels: emo
looked up to the sky at 6/08/2007 05:07:00 PM
Thursday, June 7, 2007
Kai finally left for Tekong for 2 years of National Service... We were all very nervous about this new life he's embarking soon on that island. We know he's gonna transformed, from a boy to a real man. A better and stronger Kai. I know he's looking forward till then, so am i... :) I really understand that he's not going away.
But the separation still aches our hearts.
He was a pretty brave boy; still grinning, teasing people and making lame jokes at the very end, but when he quietened down, i could see the worries and anxiety in him.
On the bright side, he'll be able to book out in 2 weeks time, and i'll get to see him in advance on Wednesday night for his graduation on Thursday! Heh heh heh.
Been spending quite an amount of time before he left, so i'm kinda contented already. :) Had a great heart to heart talk and crying the night before he left. Never thought i could attach myself to a guy so much despite the past, and i constantly thank God for bringing him into my life.
Jiayou my dearest Kai!
I don't feel right when you're gone away...
It was a day of mixed feeling.
Kai finally left for Tekong for 2 years of National Service... We were all very nervous about this new life he's embarking soon on that island. We know he's gonna transformed, from a boy to a real man. A better and stronger Kai. I know he's looking forward till then, so am i... :) I really understand that he's not going away.
But the separation still aches our hearts.
He was a pretty brave boy; still grinning, teasing people and making lame jokes at the very end, but when he quietened down, i could see the worries and anxiety in him.
On the bright side, he'll be able to book out in 2 weeks time, and i'll get to see him in advance on Wednesday night for his graduation on Thursday! Heh heh heh.
Been spending quite an amount of time before he left, so i'm kinda contented already. :) Had a great heart to heart talk and crying the night before he left. Never thought i could attach myself to a guy so much despite the past, and i constantly thank God for bringing him into my life.
Jiayou my dearest Kai!
Labels: photos, thoughts and reflection
looked up to the sky at 6/07/2007 11:21:00 PM
Monday, June 4, 2007
I am sooooooooo (can't emphasize enough) broke but happy at the same time! I went shopping with my beloved Tous minus May (May i miss you so much, come back soon from the arms of jay chou ar), Js, Seamus, Felix and Kai! All i need is unlimited funds, May and my family and i'm officially in heaven. (Okie it takes more than that but you get what i mean.) My purchases:
Received a lovely music box (or rather, player) from Kai that plays Over The Rainbow. It's gonna keep me company while Kai's away for his enlistment this thursday... :/ Head over to Kbox to sing to satisfy our singing urges and i find Js's version of 'I Dream' extremely adorable! Yes it sounds like chipmunks.... But i love it! (Js don't stare at me ar!) But Kbox will never feel the same without my beloved Fang and May... So can't wait to Kbox again with the whole crew!
Thank You God, thank you for finding me, for being the center of my universe, for loving me, for giving me better day when i'm discouraged, and for the wonderful angels you've placed in my life. :)
Over the Rainbow
HEH HEH HEH.
I am sooooooooo (can't emphasize enough) broke but happy at the same time! I went shopping with my beloved Tous minus May (May i miss you so much, come back soon from the arms of jay chou ar), Js, Seamus, Felix and Kai! All i need is unlimited funds, May and my family and i'm officially in heaven. (Okie it takes more than that but you get what i mean.) My purchases:
- 2 nail polish from Skin Food sponsored by Kai!
- A blue skulls tees that says 'In God We Trust'
- 2 bras and 3 undies with shear!
- 1 blue tube from Dorothy Perkins with shear too! And super cheap!
- Za foundation refill
- 1 dark blue eye shadow from Missha
- 1 black tunic from Far East Plaza.
- As well as the grey vest and grey pants that i've got online!
- Hand made open toe pumps from online.
- Go Jane wedges!
- A new wallet
- A new watch
Received a lovely music box (or rather, player) from Kai that plays Over The Rainbow. It's gonna keep me company while Kai's away for his enlistment this thursday... :/ Head over to Kbox to sing to satisfy our singing urges and i find Js's version of 'I Dream' extremely adorable! Yes it sounds like chipmunks.... But i love it! (Js don't stare at me ar!) But Kbox will never feel the same without my beloved Fang and May... So can't wait to Kbox again with the whole crew!
Somewhere over the rainbow
Way up high
There's a land that I heard of
Once in a lullaby
Somewhere over the rainbow
Skies are blue
And the dreams that you dare to dream
Really do come true
Some day I'll wish upon a star
And wake up where the clouds are far behind me
Where troubles melt like lemondrops
Away above the chimney tops
That's where you'll find me
Somewhere over the rainbow
Bluebirds fly
Birds fly over the rainbow
Why then, oh why can't I?
Some day I'll wish upon a star
And wake up where the clouds are far behind me
Where troubles melt like lemondrops
Away above the chimney tops
That's where you'll find me
Somewhere over the rainbow
Bluebirds fly
Birds fly over the rainbow
Why then, oh why can't I?
Thank You God, thank you for finding me, for being the center of my universe, for loving me, for giving me better day when i'm discouraged, and for the wonderful angels you've placed in my life. :)
Labels: haha hoho
looked up to the sky at 6/04/2007 02:11:00 AM
Sunday, June 3, 2007
I'm not sure why, but i've feel pretty unlucky all my life. As in, i'm contented with what i have... I've a wonderful boyfriend, friends and family around me despite all the shits going on.
But shits happen to me so frequently.
People can complain and be as self center as they want but still having people to listen talking about themselves 24/7, but when i tried to vent my frustration, i won't have the same patience.
People can bitch about certain stuffs and having people to agree with them, but when i do it... People will say that i'm mean or i'll get into trouble.
I'm pretty scared. I feel like i can't be my true self without being mistaken.
It's just that... This is really just an opinion. Not a fact.
It's a really uncomfortable feeling... But i'm at a loss of how to tell people how i feel without being mistaken.
Okie sorry for making this entry all emo again. :/ But don't worry, i'm still very contented with what i have now.
Been quite awhile since i've last stepped into church ever since the prosecution period. I went to find Kai at church and even though i promised my Pa and myself that i won't go to church as long as he's around and i was really nervous, i really miss church alot.
There were people sharing their faith and experiences with God. And they came to the topic of being a christian in a non-christian family.
I wish i was as brave as them. There's nothing that's greater than God.
So what am i waiting for?
But whenever i think about the prosecution period, my heart ache so much.
I feel so distant from God each day... I've missed many of my daily devotional, and i go to sleep without praying.
I know you're here my Lord, i know.
Give me the courage and strength please.
Be with me...
Help me get down, i can make it.
The Great Singapore Sales is really making me soooo broke. Bah. I think i've already spend 100 bucks on myself already. Every break that i went during my shift at the Singapore Art Fest ended up with purchases. :( Hai. I really need to curb... Or at the very least stop spending money on myself... AHHHHHHH
I'm not sure why, but i've feel pretty unlucky all my life. As in, i'm contented with what i have... I've a wonderful boyfriend, friends and family around me despite all the shits going on.
But shits happen to me so frequently.
People can complain and be as self center as they want but still having people to listen talking about themselves 24/7, but when i tried to vent my frustration, i won't have the same patience.
People can bitch about certain stuffs and having people to agree with them, but when i do it... People will say that i'm mean or i'll get into trouble.
I'm pretty scared. I feel like i can't be my true self without being mistaken.
It's just that... This is really just an opinion. Not a fact.
It's a really uncomfortable feeling... But i'm at a loss of how to tell people how i feel without being mistaken.
Okie sorry for making this entry all emo again. :/ But don't worry, i'm still very contented with what i have now.
Been quite awhile since i've last stepped into church ever since the prosecution period. I went to find Kai at church and even though i promised my Pa and myself that i won't go to church as long as he's around and i was really nervous, i really miss church alot.
There were people sharing their faith and experiences with God. And they came to the topic of being a christian in a non-christian family.
I wish i was as brave as them. There's nothing that's greater than God.
So what am i waiting for?
But whenever i think about the prosecution period, my heart ache so much.
I feel so distant from God each day... I've missed many of my daily devotional, and i go to sleep without praying.
I know you're here my Lord, i know.
Give me the courage and strength please.
Be with me...
Au revoir
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