Saturday, September 29, 2007
Sometimes i really wondered if i neglected them 1st, or if they neglected me 1st, thus causing me to seek shelter from others and also neglected them.
Thus causing this huge gap between us.
Life's really like a chain.
A's nagging would become B's problem, thus causing B to nag/vent his/her frustration to C, and the chain goes on.
It still hits me even when i'm trying not to give a damn about these fake lasting friendship. I don't really want to be a punching bag. Every time we had a stupid gathering i just want to scream at the hypocritical friendship we have tried to long to maintain.
Isn't it time for you all to 覺悟? Or should i 覺悟 1st?
cloudy.
I'm having that taken for granted/neglected feeling again.
Sometimes i really wondered if i neglected them 1st, or if they neglected me 1st, thus causing me to seek shelter from others and also neglected them.
Thus causing this huge gap between us.
Life's really like a chain.
A's nagging would become B's problem, thus causing B to nag/vent his/her frustration to C, and the chain goes on.
It still hits me even when i'm trying not to give a damn about these fake lasting friendship. I don't really want to be a punching bag. Every time we had a stupid gathering i just want to scream at the hypocritical friendship we have tried to long to maintain.
Isn't it time for you all to 覺悟? Or should i 覺悟 1st?
Labels: emo
looked up to the sky at 9/29/2007 12:51:00 AM
Thursday, September 27, 2007
真的很没有用。埃。
每个人都很忙。为了学业，感情，为了生活而奋斗。突然觉得时间真的飞得很快。不够时间做面莫，睡觉，做我想要做的事，见我想要见的人。
我比在学生时代时更珍惜周末的时光。
讲到很cliche hor?
不知不觉poly已开学了。。。
我已经感觉到学生跟上班族的距离了。啊~~~
很闲。但我也该长大了。其实在这里也学了很多东西。所以不错啦。
哦！下班了！嘿嘿嘿。
一堆大便。
想当年，我还可以很有八握的炫耀我的华语。但现在，我的华语真的生锈到可以丢掉啊。
真的很没有用。埃。
每个人都很忙。为了学业，感情，为了生活而奋斗。突然觉得时间真的飞得很快。不够时间做面莫，睡觉，做我想要做的事，见我想要见的人。
我比在学生时代时更珍惜周末的时光。
讲到很cliche hor?
不知不觉poly已开学了。。。
我已经感觉到学生跟上班族的距离了。啊~~~
很闲。但我也该长大了。其实在这里也学了很多东西。所以不错啦。
哦！下班了！嘿嘿嘿。
Labels: thoughts and reflection
looked up to the sky at 9/27/2007 06:04:00 PM
Tuesday, September 18, 2007
Been awhile since i last updated this space.
I've starting working and it's the 2nd week of work already! And i've been getting up early every day! Not so bad if i say so myself. Heh heh. But i'll go back to my old ways on weekends. :/ Progress, progress.
So far the work that i've been doing aren't not exactly what i expected yet, but nonetheless i'm really glad that i'm so much closer to my interest then before! There are some tumbles here and then but i'm really determined to ignore them as much as i can. Heh heh but i've already decorated my desk with photos and some of my favorite verses, and food for support. I've also never realised how tiring working life is. It's really unbelievable that i'm sleeping at 10 - 12pm now. And i thought i will be less bound by homeworks and projects and i can visit town every day. Siao.
Anyway tomorrow's Kai's POP! PoP pOp PoP pOp PoP. Gonna bring my dearest cameras out for a walk heh heh.
Woah.
Been awhile since i last updated this space.
I've starting working and it's the 2nd week of work already! And i've been getting up early every day! Not so bad if i say so myself. Heh heh. But i'll go back to my old ways on weekends. :/ Progress, progress.
So far the work that i've been doing aren't not exactly what i expected yet, but nonetheless i'm really glad that i'm so much closer to my interest then before! There are some tumbles here and then but i'm really determined to ignore them as much as i can. Heh heh but i've already decorated my desk with photos and some of my favorite verses, and food for support. I've also never realised how tiring working life is. It's really unbelievable that i'm sleeping at 10 - 12pm now. And i thought i will be less bound by homeworks and projects and i can visit town every day. Siao.
Anyway tomorrow's Kai's POP! PoP pOp PoP pOp PoP. Gonna bring my dearest cameras out for a walk heh heh.
looked up to the sky at 9/18/2007 11:38:00 AM
Monday, September 3, 2007
You might think that i've already gone through this many times, or perhaps its time to truly get over it. Or you, you might not even know what's going through my life now.
I'm really heipi and contended with i have now at this very moment. Really. (well actually i could use with abit of understanding and kaching!)
But sometimes i still catches familiar glimpses at the corner of my eye. The aching is more or less gone for now, but there's still a weird tingling inside me that's really distracting me.
And it came back to haunt me again yesterday, and i swear, there is nothing more than this annoying tingling.
This tingling made me so guilty of the past,
this tingling made me so disappointed that i wasn't even worthy of any concern.
But today, this tingling made also me realised that even if i'm unworthy of that friendship, there are far more precious relationships/people awaiting me.
Especially to the angel who sat beside me, right at that very moment when the tingling started, and all he does is look and smile at me.
He said he doesn't care about one's past, only the heart.
Desperate heart chaser.
All i could ever say is, thank you God. Thank you so so much for this angel.
And 谢谢你的温柔, Kai.
Angels
It has been exactly one year. I don't supposed anybody will keep track of such depressing stuffs but i just can't seem to forget it.
You might think that i've already gone through this many times, or perhaps its time to truly get over it. Or you, you might not even know what's going through my life now.
I'm really heipi and contended with i have now at this very moment. Really. (well actually i could use with abit of understanding and kaching!)
But sometimes i still catches familiar glimpses at the corner of my eye. The aching is more or less gone for now, but there's still a weird tingling inside me that's really distracting me.
And it came back to haunt me again yesterday, and i swear, there is nothing more than this annoying tingling.
This tingling made me so guilty of the past,
this tingling made me so disappointed that i wasn't even worthy of any concern.
But today, this tingling made also me realised that even if i'm unworthy of that friendship, there are far more precious relationships/people awaiting me.
Especially to the angel who sat beside me, right at that very moment when the tingling started, and all he does is look and smile at me.
He said he doesn't care about one's past, only the heart.
Desperate heart chaser.
All i could ever say is, thank you God. Thank you so so much for this angel.
And 谢谢你的温柔, Kai.
Labels: thoughts and reflection
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