The broken lights on the freeway left me here alone

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain is there healing
In your name (In your name) I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on
I'm barely holdin' on to you

Lifehouse - Broken


If this's what i've wanted all this while, why am i so terrified this time round?
If i tell you deepest fears for this task, would you see me as lack of substance?
If i give in to my fears this time round, will i never gonna have the chance to transform?
If You've arranged for us to meet and help each other in this life, why is it going worse instead?