Friday, February 29, 2008

old songs are my time machine

found some songs that i used to listen before i got my ipod reformatted...
suddenly waves of memories gushed through my mind as if...
It just happened yesterday.

Some were heipi joyful memories like s.h.e's 魔力 which brings me back to the days when yan and i just simply love to duet whenever we're free in class,

Many were heart broken moments... and the pain still kinda lingers.
However it's (kind of) comforting to see how i've managed to move on, when i've made myself believe that i never would.

i guess it's all a matter of how we view things.
but i can never remember this, even if i sorta came to a revelation now.
i'll be too frustrated to remember.

I always envy people like fang, cheryl, kai and bee...
Actually anyone who's not me.
staying cheerful or positive things now seems like the hardest thing to me.
why is this so?

Sometimes i really wonder if God made me this way, and it made me feel so angry, so sensitive, so emotional, so low self-esteem.
To be so hindered and negative...

To let others claim what my only best traits.
To let others posses my only passions.
To let others took what made me unique.
To let others invade and leave me entirely empty.

Even if they're my loved ones...

All i can do is to pray for more grace. That's all.

I'm going back to travel through time again.

Labels: photos, thoughts and reflection

looked up to the sky at 2/29/2008 12:26:00 AM

Tuesday, February 26, 2008

i think i'm going crazy...

looked up to the sky at 2/26/2008 12:48:00 AM

Monday, February 11, 2008

i'm going to remove my make up now.

wah where to start.

i find myself not blogging anymore but i've many things to express.
i like friendster-surfing but i wish i can delete my account because it's evil.
i love my new year break but i hate not being able to do what i wanna do.
i want to sleep but i've yet to start on my work.
i want to buy many things but there's nothing for me to buy.
i want it but yet i don't know if i want it.
i miss you but i can't show it.
i wish we can take away all the problems but it's only on my part.
i want to silm down but i can't seem to stop eating.
i want to talk to you and spend our whole lives building up our relationships but i don't know how.

these are me smiling.