Tuesday, October 23, 2007
Sometimes i know i should be sure of myself.
But most of the time i'm just not sure.
But nobody (or rarely) will come and tell you how good you actually are and comfort you. I guess that's how the world works. If you aren't sure or confident, then get out of the way because they've no time for you.
Then again... Is it really this way? Is this how the world really works?
I know the world is spinning fast, but I don't really wanna believe it.
So many worries and fear inside me,
Suddenly at my 20th years of life, I'm really very scared and unsure of the future.
Nothing i could do except to pray that everything will turn out fine and Father God to be there with me.
Sorry for the whines and grumbling. I just wish that there's more to life than learning everything the tedious way because i'm abit tired already.
By the way Kai's leaving for Aussie this coming end of the month... :/
SHUTTTTUPPPPPPPP ISABELLLLLLL
If only Father you could guide and forgive me on what to do...
Sometimes i know i'm great.
Sometimes i know i should be sure of myself.
But most of the time i'm just not sure.
But nobody (or rarely) will come and tell you how good you actually are and comfort you. I guess that's how the world works. If you aren't sure or confident, then get out of the way because they've no time for you.
Then again... Is it really this way? Is this how the world really works?
I know the world is spinning fast, but I don't really wanna believe it.
So many worries and fear inside me,
Suddenly at my 20th years of life, I'm really very scared and unsure of the future.
Nothing i could do except to pray that everything will turn out fine and Father God to be there with me.
Sorry for the whines and grumbling. I just wish that there's more to life than learning everything the tedious way because i'm abit tired already.
By the way Kai's leaving for Aussie this coming end of the month... :/
SHUTTTTUPPPPPPPP ISABELLLLLLL
Labels: emo
looked up to the sky at 10/23/2007 05:25:00 PM
Sunday, October 14, 2007
Maybe because i'm waiting for you to initiate.
Or maybe because i'm afraid that we'll end up in disagreement or arguments again
But i think of you guys everyday.
I look at your pictures beside my office desk, in my computer, in my handphone, beside my bed...
Everyday. Yeah i did that everyday, 不要懷疑。
But whenever i'm tired, or discouraged, or just mesmerising about the good old days that we spend together...
你們在那里？
Do i still matter?
Do you even bother about how i am feeling at that very moment instead of just focusing on how you feel?
Do you really think we actually don't care but act as if we do as you proclaimed?
i hate mind games.
Maybe it's the hectic workload that makes me extremely tired whenever i'm home.
Maybe because i'm waiting for you to initiate.
Or maybe because i'm afraid that we'll end up in disagreement or arguments again
But i think of you guys everyday.
I look at your pictures beside my office desk, in my computer, in my handphone, beside my bed...
Everyday. Yeah i did that everyday, 不要懷疑。
But whenever i'm tired, or discouraged, or just mesmerising about the good old days that we spend together...
你們在那里？
Do i still matter?
Do you even bother about how i am feeling at that very moment instead of just focusing on how you feel?
Do you really think we actually don't care but act as if we do as you proclaimed?
A stranger stabs you in the front; a friend stabs you in the back; a boyfriend stabs you in the heart, but best friends only poke each other with straws.
I know i haven't been the best friend i could, but i'll never stop trying.
And to you, you can try stabbing, i won't stab back, because i want you to hold that bloody knife in your hand and know that you aren't even a deserving friend that you claimed you are at all. _|_
And to you, you can try stabbing, i won't stab back, because i want you to hold that bloody knife in your hand and know that you aren't even a deserving friend that you claimed you are at all. _|_
Labels: thoughts and reflection
looked up to the sky at 10/14/2007 11:56:00 PM
Thursday, October 4, 2007
「有些人在妳生命裡扮演一個角色，但並不屬於妳，只是帶領妳去一個地方。」
What a beautiful phrase. Everything was clear to me at that instant.
会走得更远吗？
I was reading Tanya Chua's music blog about her inspiration for her new album from her recent failed relationship when i came across this phrase:
「有些人在妳生命裡扮演一個角色，但並不屬於妳，只是帶領妳去一個地方。」
What a beautiful phrase. Everything was clear to me at that instant.
Labels: thoughts and reflection
Au revoir
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