Sunday, December 31, 2006
And less than 1 hour to meeting the 6e gang and i have yet to bathe. :/
A recap of 2006 for myself;
living in a new day
A few more hours to 2007.
And less than 1 hour to meeting the 6e gang and i have yet to bathe. :/
A recap of 2006 for myself;
- my 19th year on earth.
- didn't exactly start out well.
- fall out friendships... as well as relationships
- but nonetheless still very precious to me
- wonderful memories, especially chiangmai trip with mcm and yan and may
- wonderful friendships in school that get me through
- as well as my toutou and 6e gang
- closer to God :)
- kai :)
ending 2006.
ps: i really want a fisheye and actionsampler.
Labels: thoughts and reflection
looked up to the sky at 12/31/2006 05:14:00 PM
Saturday, December 30, 2006
Finally know the true meaning of Christmas and i'm so glad and grateful you save us my Father. :)
jas, khinying, bishan, nasheng, tzehong, me, clara and kenneth.
In between one of the games we played called 'zhong ji mi ma'. Take note of those innocent-looking ole potato chips, chili sauce, herbal tea...
that were used for punishment. Poor nasheng. :/
the 'nicely' wrapped presents.
kai and i got each others pressie instead; famous amos cookies and shower cream.
'super white' chao ji bai christmas. -_-
only kai and royston's heads were saved.
december babies: khinying and jas.
christmas eve dinner with my family.
us and the christmas tree.
annabel clara and me.
nice puppies with a suspected galloping mother at yan's house on christmas day.
Things that's bothering me now...
pre-20th crisis part 2.
Had a very blessed Christmas with my beloved family, friends, Kai and of cause God.
Finally know the true meaning of Christmas and i'm so glad and grateful you save us my Father. :)
jas, khinying, bishan, nasheng, tzehong, me, clara and kenneth.
In between one of the games we played called 'zhong ji mi ma'. Take note of those innocent-looking ole potato chips, chili sauce, herbal tea...
that were used for punishment. Poor nasheng. :/
the 'nicely' wrapped presents.
kai and i got each others pressie instead; famous amos cookies and shower cream.
'super white' chao ji bai christmas. -_-
only kai and royston's heads were saved.
december babies: khinying and jas.
christmas eve dinner with my family.
us and the christmas tree.
annabel clara and me.
nice puppies with a suspected galloping mother at yan's house on christmas day.
Things that's bothering me now...
- Highlight my hair blue and dye my hair black.
- But i have limited funds
- Trying to find a blue black hair dye in stores and online.
- But it's not avaliable in Singapore.
- Go for make-over and get more mature and new outfits.
- But i know i'm still very much a kid at heart.
- So why go to that extend to damaged and do crazy things to my hair again?
- Why do i want those so call new outfits?
- Why do i want a stupid make-over?
I'm still very much under-going the pre-20th crisis. Hai.
- Stop whinning and hinting to others what i want because what i really want is to find myself and stay heipi.
2 more days to go till 2007 but i'm not sure if i'm ready for it. :/ AHHHHHH. *bang wall*
Labels: photos, thoughts and reflection
looked up to the sky at 12/30/2006 11:05:00 PM
Wednesday, December 20, 2006
Almost this entire week i've been throwing tempers, getting angry over the slighest things, snapped at people... blah blah and other ugly stuffs that i've lost count already.
Especially sorry to the people i've snapped at... Namely Kai, Yan, Fang, my family... And beloved God...
It's like a-magnified-isabel's-flaw programme, a pre 20th-crisis. I feel so condemned again.
As i looked back at my almost 20th year on earth..
What have i achieved?
Who am i? I don't know.
What have i done to add joy to this world?
I know i heard my 'mother'complaining to annabel on the phone just now.
I know my father snapped at me on the phone.
I don't know what my father and friends want for christmas this year anymore...
All i know is what i want. I can hardly recongise myself... This materialistic me.
Even for my prayers... My only communication with God feels so ugly.
All i could pray is for everything to go smoothly for me and the people around me.
What happen to God? What happen to Jesus? He gave his love unconditionally to me, he DIED for me!
For mere loser me!
So who am i to talk about that bloody dress that i want? That nice christmas and birthday that i want? WHO?
Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
I feel so disconnected... So depressed... So condemned... So self-centered... So ugly.
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
- Casting crowns, Who am I.
Forgive me father, i'll do anything to get close to you again.
Damn the devil, he's nothing compared to you my Lord.
Save my soul, cleanse my heart please.
I am because of who You are.
As the year's coming to an end... I'm feeling so depressed.
Almost this entire week i've been throwing tempers, getting angry over the slighest things, snapped at people... blah blah and other ugly stuffs that i've lost count already.
Especially sorry to the people i've snapped at... Namely Kai, Yan, Fang, my family... And beloved God...
It's like a-magnified-isabel's-flaw programme, a pre 20th-crisis. I feel so condemned again.
As i looked back at my almost 20th year on earth..
What have i achieved?
Who am i? I don't know.
What have i done to add joy to this world?
I know i heard my 'mother'complaining to annabel on the phone just now.
I know my father snapped at me on the phone.
I don't know what my father and friends want for christmas this year anymore...
All i know is what i want. I can hardly recongise myself... This materialistic me.
Even for my prayers... My only communication with God feels so ugly.
All i could pray is for everything to go smoothly for me and the people around me.
What happen to God? What happen to Jesus? He gave his love unconditionally to me, he DIED for me!
For mere loser me!
So who am i to talk about that bloody dress that i want? That nice christmas and birthday that i want? WHO?
Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
I feel so disconnected... So depressed... So condemned... So self-centered... So ugly.
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
- Casting crowns, Who am I.
Forgive me father, i'll do anything to get close to you again.
Damn the devil, he's nothing compared to you my Lord.
Save my soul, cleanse my heart please.
Labels: beloved God, thoughts and reflection
looked up to the sky at 12/20/2006 01:33:00 AM
Sunday, December 17, 2006
You and Me.
Random thoughts on my mind that i'll like to document for my own reference:
- Finally it's xmas break. :)
- Kinda inspired by yutong and kai's brother to study overseas in Australia and try to be more independent.
- Kinda inspired to work in the media industry in Thailand after attending this week's Massina's lecture. Maybe i'm more suitable to the life in Thailand after all...
- I want to be and look more mature since the big 2's appraoching... Hai.
- Which is why, i want that black dress for a more mature look. :D Haha i know i'm just justifying myself.
- I want to dye my hair black with blue highlights.
- I want to break free from 'prosecution', make my stand and run to you Father.
- I need to do my feature writing story.
- I need to do my resume assignment... And i need to find a job that i want.
- I need to spend more time 'thinking'.
- I need to stop eating supper and start dieting.
- I need to bring my camera out and snap snap snap.
- I want to re-organised the thousghts and things that i've left untouched for these 3 months...
- So that i won't think about them... Or at least in sad way.
- I want to spend more time talking and praising my dearest Father.
- I'll make it a habit to say "Jesus jesus" when i am to meet something bad because I live for His name. :)
- Be reminded that how fortunate i actually am with all the wonderful people surroundng me... And to spare more thoughts for others.
- But that topshop blue sweater, black jean skirt, black flock, skull panties still look appealing to me though...
- So does that black havanas and sony ericsson black/blue flip-phone!!! :/ LOL.
What day is it? And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive... *wink at kai*
Labels: thoughts and reflection
looked up to the sky at 12/17/2006 12:22:00 AM
Friday, December 15, 2006
Wonder how my life has changed
Wonder how Your love, it came to me
As I look into the sky above
All my fears, so far away
All I hear is heaven calling me
- Look to you, Hillsong United.
It's been such a busy week!
Monday and tuesday was dedicated to radio drama with lydia, zhixin and kening.
Went over to ly's house and had a great dinner of boneless chicken rice and best of all... ramily burger! Bumped into khalis too! But he couldn't recongise me at 1st sight. Wow it's really shocking how long we've already left beatty...
Stayed over in school the next day for the 1st time of my 3 years in Ngee Ann. And in the midst of rushing our radio drama, we decided to take a break and take photos in the extremely dark and empty school campus!
I think we have never felt so zombified in our whole life... And there i was emo-ing again. Thank God for the wonderful groupmates i have and kai for waiting up with me and fetching me the next morning.
Later that evening, went over to the church's youth camp at sentosa. Was so inspired just with the mass praying; how everybody love our Father so much, and how great He is for us. :) The dinner and concert *wink at kai* was full of surprises that really touched me.
Ahh for i wish i could attend church every week... So full of grace, i am, my Lord, because you love us so much, and you died for me before i knew you... :)
Finally... Today marks the last day of school before the Christmas break. So heipi! And i'm gonna be meeting my dearest Tous at fang's house for steamboat!
And i'm so glad that Yan has passed her driving test! Yay we're gonna have a 'driver' now! And i'm so glad to keep in touch with dear Singwei over at China!
Yay yay yay!
Okie gotta go get ready for class at 1pm. LOL.
So full of grace and love... All because of you my Lord. :)
Look to my best lovers, Jesus and Father.
As I look into the sky above
Wonder how my life has changed
Wonder how Your love, it came to me
As I look into the sky above
All my fears, so far away
All I hear is heaven calling me
- Look to you, Hillsong United.
It's been such a busy week!
Monday and tuesday was dedicated to radio drama with lydia, zhixin and kening.
Went over to ly's house and had a great dinner of boneless chicken rice and best of all... ramily burger! Bumped into khalis too! But he couldn't recongise me at 1st sight. Wow it's really shocking how long we've already left beatty...
Stayed over in school the next day for the 1st time of my 3 years in Ngee Ann. And in the midst of rushing our radio drama, we decided to take a break and take photos in the extremely dark and empty school campus!
I think we have never felt so zombified in our whole life... And there i was emo-ing again. Thank God for the wonderful groupmates i have and kai for waiting up with me and fetching me the next morning.
Later that evening, went over to the church's youth camp at sentosa. Was so inspired just with the mass praying; how everybody love our Father so much, and how great He is for us. :) The dinner and concert *wink at kai* was full of surprises that really touched me.
Ahh for i wish i could attend church every week... So full of grace, i am, my Lord, because you love us so much, and you died for me before i knew you... :)
Finally... Today marks the last day of school before the Christmas break. So heipi! And i'm gonna be meeting my dearest Tous at fang's house for steamboat!
And i'm so glad that Yan has passed her driving test! Yay we're gonna have a 'driver' now! And i'm so glad to keep in touch with dear Singwei over at China!
Yay yay yay!
Okie gotta go get ready for class at 1pm. LOL.
So full of grace and love... All because of you my Lord. :)
Labels: beloved God
looked up to the sky at 12/15/2006 11:57:00 AM
Sunday, December 10, 2006
May you have a blessed 19th year ahead *hai still so young* and all your wishes come true! :D *hug*
Heipi 19th birthday dear Kai!
May you have a blessed 19th year ahead *hai still so young* and all your wishes come true! :D *hug*
Labels: heipi birthday, photos
looked up to the sky at 12/10/2006 12:10:00 PM
Wednesday, December 6, 2006
Bah. *ROARRRRR*
Annabel finally came back from her Thailand trip!!! Feeling a tiny weeny bit sore that she could go back and i couldn't... But she bought stuffs for me!
That's 2 t-shirt, 1 back waist belt, 1 black legging and 2 panties.
She also bought this beautiful black mini birdcage for me to hang my earings. :D
Along with 2 nautical earings and 2 packets of winnie the pooh tissues. -_-"
Heh heh heh. But can't help but heh-ing upon the things she bought for me. :D
Hit town with Kening and Zhixin today too. Was fun but there's so many many things i want. :/
But i bought:
My mind's unweaving.
Feeling abit emo now. But i supposed it's PMS.
Bah. *ROARRRRR*
Annabel finally came back from her Thailand trip!!! Feeling a tiny weeny bit sore that she could go back and i couldn't... But she bought stuffs for me!
That's 2 t-shirt, 1 back waist belt, 1 black legging and 2 panties.
She also bought this beautiful black mini birdcage for me to hang my earings. :D
Along with 2 nautical earings and 2 packets of winnie the pooh tissues. -_-"
Heh heh heh. But can't help but heh-ing upon the things she bought for me. :D
Hit town with Kening and Zhixin today too. Was fun but there's so many many things i want. :/
But i bought:
- skull earrings
- a blue belt
- a bodyshop white musk gift set for myself :/
- 2 handphone pouch
And tomorrow i'm going out with beloved Yan for my virgin trip to Vivo city.
I'm so dead. And that, perhaps explain why i am pms-ing. Hai.
Some pictures took during chinese presentation class using Sarah's apple ibook last week! So many effects and all!
I wish i had a ibook too, but i guess my toshiba aren't that bad either, except for it's weight and it's tendancy to crash. :/
Us and Mr Quack Quack!
Hai pictures and shopping usually cheer me up...
What's wrong man, what's wrong... :(
Au revoir
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