Tuesday, January 22, 2008
Eee dead cow. but thanks dear Kai for everything. :)
Every evening i see God's work.
Cheryl's birthday celebration which is a total blast! Heipi birthday Cheryl. :)
Love the sea breeze, love the warm sunshine on my back, love the company. If only we could stop there.
meet smiley max.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH this is insane!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH i finally start to get it!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH i have yet to buy my CNY clothes!!!
Thank You God, i know it must be You.
Eee dead cow. but thanks dear Kai for everything. :)
Every evening i see God's work.
Cheryl's birthday celebration which is a total blast! Heipi birthday Cheryl. :)
Love the sea breeze, love the warm sunshine on my back, love the company. If only we could stop there.
meet smiley max.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH this is insane!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH i finally start to get it!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH i have yet to buy my CNY clothes!!!
Labels: photos
looked up to the sky at 1/22/2008 01:28:00 AM
Sunday, January 20, 2008
Sometimes i'm just so angry with everything (including with myself) that i just simply lost all motivation to do anything, since no matter what i do, everything will still turns out bad.
So unmotivated that i neglected my daily devotional readings, my only knowledge / understanding to God... But now that i studied them again...
Oh dear Father, how badly i believe in Your words.
How much i need Your words.
How i want to live Your words.
Build me up again my Lord, Let my be free from all these problems please.
shine like stars.
It's been a really weird / interesting week all thanks to the repetitive accusation, assumption and misunderstanding.
Sometimes i'm just so angry with everything (including with myself) that i just simply lost all motivation to do anything, since no matter what i do, everything will still turns out bad.
So unmotivated that i neglected my daily devotional readings, my only knowledge / understanding to God... But now that i studied them again...
Philippians 2:14-16
Do everything without complaining or arguing, so that you may become blameless and pure, children of God without fault in a crooked and depraved generation, in which you shine like stars in the universe as you hold out the word of life.
Matthew 7:12
In everything, do to others what you would have them do to you, for this sums up the Law and the prophets.
James 1:2-3
Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance.
Oh dear Father, how badly i believe in Your words.
How much i need Your words.
How i want to live Your words.
Build me up again my Lord, Let my be free from all these problems please.
Labels: beloved God
looked up to the sky at 1/20/2008 11:52:00 PM
Wednesday, January 9, 2008
And having waited for 1 long year, my long awaited 21st birthday's over again. like *poof*. Woah.
Can't believe i'm 21 already. Can't believe i'm that old.
Feels like i'm running out of time to grow up. There's so many things i've to learn, to improve, and here i am, 21 already, and the only good thing i can think of is watching R21 movies. Full stop.
I wish i could force time to stop and give me more time to ponder about... There's so so much things to think and enlighten on.
Then again, it's your Plan, Father. And i trust You.
And while you're at it, I'm grateful. Really, despite how things have turn out so unexpectedly...
For my family.
My pa's birthday email to me because he's just too shy.
My sister's immediate phone call and i really wish she's back and relieve from all those depressing problems.
For my dearest 豆豆老婆們 + Peng xiong For them to be the strongest pillars of my life.
For their abilities to always see the good in me no matter how emo and idiotic i've been to them.
For always understanding me.
For never leaving me despite all the founds and... lost.
For the few Beattyians whom i've hardly contacted or seen but could still remember my birthday! Yutong, Joy, Singwei... Thank you especially to Bee and Cheryl, for the nice photo frame and Christian musicians poster calendar which i could only recongised 2 of em, and also the extremely heart-warming letters. Hugs!
For the few 6e-ians who still send me their brithday greetings. It's really sad how things have turn out between us but i guessed that's part of life. Thank you Clara and Xiang Xin for the surprise visit with cheese cake, for not pushing me away despite the reprimand that i gave earlier on.
For letting me know that all hope aren't exactly lost from the 6e lot.
For the Radio Heatwaver; Afiq, Ash, Azhar for the surprise phone call, Shear for your blog entry, Adiel, Gera for your voice recording and Aud! I really miss you guys and i'm so glad that you guys have yet to forget me. :D
And last but not least, for Kai, who have to tahan all my requests and demands. :D I'm the jackass lah okie?
By the way i've finally cut my hair the way i like it! *drumrolls*.... WOOOOHOOO!
I love love love my new short hair! Hahahahhahaha!
Thank you Father. For all the highs and lows, for all the hidden blessings.
This year's birthday was a rather lonely and inconvenient one as Kai have to return to camp, Tous have to attend school and the people i celebrated almost every year... Hai. To be honest i was very upset, because i finally realised how fragile our friendships were, and that my twin too, was so disappointed that she left for Thailand.
And by saying that i've to declared that i'm not pin-pointing or blaming anyone, but i can't help feeling disappointed at the situation can i? aaahhhhhhhh.
So this year for my 21st birthday celebration, i 'requested' for an early zoo outing with my beloveds Kai + Tous + Peng Xiong!
That's Kai.
That's me.
A stoning rino pondering about his purpose in life *wink at may*
My 老婆們. Wahahahaha *pat my tummy*
The people whom i love so much.
Took a half day off from work and had a really fulfilling Japaneses buffet with my beloved Tous! So fulfilling that i seriously wanna puke after that.
Our very 1st Tous neoprint together.
Received a Beanie's notebook from Tous and that seriously's the best gift that i've ever received! Tous + Pengxiong wrote a list of reasons to boast my self-esteem and i'm really so so touched. Thanks Tous for taking time off for my birthday from your ever busy school work. I really appreciate it alot.
Met up with Kai and received a really pretty sunflower and a 'surprise' (actually it's pretty obvious) cake from him and his family. :) Thanks my dear fat ass! And we're both the proud owners of Nintendo DS lite!
Haha i'm playing Harry Potter and the Order of Phoneix but seems like the game's corrupted. Double Sian.
Oh well, I've a Dalmatian named Haha so i think i'll go play with her then!
Must quickly post this while i'm in a heipi mood
because i've been so moody lately and the last thing i wanna do is to make an emo entry again. Sian.
And having waited for 1 long year, my long awaited 21st birthday's over again. like *poof*. Woah.
Can't believe i'm 21 already. Can't believe i'm that old.
Feels like i'm running out of time to grow up. There's so many things i've to learn, to improve, and here i am, 21 already, and the only good thing i can think of is watching R21 movies. Full stop.
I wish i could force time to stop and give me more time to ponder about... There's so so much things to think and enlighten on.
Then again, it's your Plan, Father. And i trust You.
And while you're at it, I'm grateful. Really, despite how things have turn out so unexpectedly...
For my family.
My pa's birthday email to me because he's just too shy.
My sister's immediate phone call and i really wish she's back and relieve from all those depressing problems.
For my dearest 豆豆老婆們 + Peng xiong For them to be the strongest pillars of my life.
For their abilities to always see the good in me no matter how emo and idiotic i've been to them.
For always understanding me.
For never leaving me despite all the founds and... lost.
For the few Beattyians whom i've hardly contacted or seen but could still remember my birthday! Yutong, Joy, Singwei... Thank you especially to Bee and Cheryl, for the nice photo frame and Christian musicians poster calendar which i could only recongised 2 of em, and also the extremely heart-warming letters. Hugs!
For the few 6e-ians who still send me their brithday greetings. It's really sad how things have turn out between us but i guessed that's part of life. Thank you Clara and Xiang Xin for the surprise visit with cheese cake, for not pushing me away despite the reprimand that i gave earlier on.
For letting me know that all hope aren't exactly lost from the 6e lot.
For the Radio Heatwaver; Afiq, Ash, Azhar for the surprise phone call, Shear for your blog entry, Adiel, Gera for your voice recording and Aud! I really miss you guys and i'm so glad that you guys have yet to forget me. :D
And last but not least, for Kai, who have to tahan all my requests and demands. :D I'm the jackass lah okie?
By the way i've finally cut my hair the way i like it! *drumrolls*.... WOOOOHOOO!
I love love love my new short hair! Hahahahhahaha!
Thank you Father. For all the highs and lows, for all the hidden blessings.
This year's birthday was a rather lonely and inconvenient one as Kai have to return to camp, Tous have to attend school and the people i celebrated almost every year... Hai. To be honest i was very upset, because i finally realised how fragile our friendships were, and that my twin too, was so disappointed that she left for Thailand.
And by saying that i've to declared that i'm not pin-pointing or blaming anyone, but i can't help feeling disappointed at the situation can i? aaahhhhhhhh.
So this year for my 21st birthday celebration, i 'requested' for an early zoo outing with my beloveds Kai + Tous + Peng Xiong!
That's Kai.
That's me.
A stoning rino pondering about his purpose in life *wink at may*
My 老婆們. Wahahahaha *pat my tummy*
The people whom i love so much.
Took a half day off from work and had a really fulfilling Japaneses buffet with my beloved Tous! So fulfilling that i seriously wanna puke after that.
Our very 1st Tous neoprint together.
Received a Beanie's notebook from Tous and that seriously's the best gift that i've ever received! Tous + Pengxiong wrote a list of reasons to boast my self-esteem and i'm really so so touched. Thanks Tous for taking time off for my birthday from your ever busy school work. I really appreciate it alot.
Met up with Kai and received a really pretty sunflower and a 'surprise' (actually it's pretty obvious) cake from him and his family. :) Thanks my dear fat ass! And we're both the proud owners of Nintendo DS lite!
Haha i'm playing Harry Potter and the Order of Phoneix but seems like the game's corrupted. Double Sian.
Oh well, I've a Dalmatian named Haha so i think i'll go play with her then!
Labels: beloved God, heipi birthday, thoughts and reflection
looked up to the sky at 1/09/2008 12:17:00 AM
Friday, January 4, 2008
Hai had a bad night yesterday but thank goodness for Tous and Kai... I need you guys so much. *hug*
So accurate! 啊啊!!!
A good beginning makes a good ending?
Hai had a bad night yesterday but thank goodness for Tous and Kai... I need you guys so much. *hug*
OMG is this another 21st year old crisis or i'm just going back to my depression self again?!?
Personality colour quiz
Your Existing Situation
- Unwilling to extend herself or exert undue effort (with the possible exception of sexual activity). Feels that further progress requires more from her than she is willing or able to give. Would prefer reasonable comfort and security rather than the rewards of greater ambition.
Your Stress Sources
- Feels that life has far more to offer and that there are still important things to be achieved--that life must be experienced to the fullest. As a result, she pursues her objectives with a fierce intensity that will not let go of things. Becomes deeply involved and runs the risk of being unable to view things with sufficient objectivity, or calmly enough; is therefore in danger of becoming agitated and of exhausting her nervous energy. Cannot leave things alone and feels she can only be at peace when she has finally reached her goal.
Your Restrained Characteristics
- Insists that her hopes and ideas are realistic, but need reassurance and encouragement. Egocentric and therefore quick to take offense.
Feels that things stand in her way, that circumstances are forcing her to compromise and forgo some pleasures for the time being.
Your Desired Objective
- Needs a peaceful environment. Wants release from stress, and freedom from conflicts or disagreement. Takes pains to control the situation and its problems by proceeding cautiously. Has sensitivity of feeling and a fine eye for detail.
Your Actual Problem
Needs to achieve a stable and peaceful condition, enabling her to free herself of the worry that she may be prevented from achieving all the things she wants.So accurate! 啊啊!!!
Labels: emo
looked up to the sky at 1/04/2008 11:26:00 AM
Thursday, January 3, 2008
Orchard outing with Tous and Fang's *ahem*. Heh.
Kai's 20th birthday which we never really did celebrate because my work's just too much... :/
Smiley Kai.
Xmas gathering at May's house with Tous! May and her pressie from Fang and other pressies which you can't see because they're all laid over the floor...
Yan and her pressies (minus the plastic warpper)!
Fang and her pressies!
And me with my pressies. 大收获！Heh Tous never let me down...
Us together! Too bad we didn't have much time together.
And thanks to Seamus for your eggtart and pressie from Macau / HK! And erm, your message about prositutes sighting. Haha.
On our way out for xmas dinner on xmas's eve. But my pa was pretty moody. :/
really pretty xmas tree at Vivo.
Together...
Disturbing the Marche cow.
And it went on...
Poor cow.
Ab wanted to go up to Mount Faber for the fake snow show and countdown and so we waited for almost 1/2 hour for the bus but was in vain. So we decided to slurge for taxi, only to realise that everyone else had the same idea as us so the whole route up to Mount Faber was stuck. Half way through the journey we decided to walk up and went the wrong direction.
Here comes the fake snow show which turns out to be another phoney foam show!
Wasn't exactly how i'll like to spend my Christmas but, there's next year's xmas to look forward to next year's.
Belated christmas photos
Some really outdated photos that i've never got to transfer out from my SD card since my card reader can't be used on my Macbook. :/
Orchard outing with Tous and Fang's *ahem*. Heh.
Kai's 20th birthday which we never really did celebrate because my work's just too much... :/
Smiley Kai.
Xmas gathering at May's house with Tous! May and her pressie from Fang and other pressies which you can't see because they're all laid over the floor...
Yan and her pressies (minus the plastic warpper)!
Fang and her pressies!
And me with my pressies. 大收获！Heh Tous never let me down...
Us together! Too bad we didn't have much time together.
And thanks to Seamus for your eggtart and pressie from Macau / HK! And erm, your message about prositutes sighting. Haha.
On our way out for xmas dinner on xmas's eve. But my pa was pretty moody. :/
really pretty xmas tree at Vivo.
Together...
Disturbing the Marche cow.
And it went on...
Poor cow.
Ab wanted to go up to Mount Faber for the fake snow show and countdown and so we waited for almost 1/2 hour for the bus but was in vain. So we decided to slurge for taxi, only to realise that everyone else had the same idea as us so the whole route up to Mount Faber was stuck. Half way through the journey we decided to walk up and went the wrong direction.
Here comes the fake snow show which turns out to be another phoney foam show!
Wasn't exactly how i'll like to spend my Christmas but, there's next year's xmas to look forward to next year's.
Au revoir
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