Saturday, June 16, 2007

Runaway

Yesterday was Kai's graduation... As well as the mass communication cohort which i should belong to.

I could hardly recongise Kai in his uniform and without his hair. But i'm really glad to attend his graduation ceremony cause he look absolutely like an ah beng-turns-pastor in that graduation gown.

Anyway had a good time with him and i'm missing him alot now... :/

After sending Kai off after lunch with his Pa, i quickly hide in the office in the whole day and prayed that i won't bump into any of those ex-'classmates'.

I'm really heipi for them... But i wish we ARE classmates, not just stranger for now.
I wish i was part of them.
In fact i wish i was home so i cried my heart out cause it feels really terrible to be left out, to be forgotten, to not belong to anywhere...
And that my absence would make alot people feel more comfortable.

I wish i'm graduating too. I wish i belong somewhere. The more i think about it the more i wanna skip the whole ceremony. But i crave for it, just a simple graduation ceremony so my Pa could witness and take photos with my friends.

What friends? Haha. Everybody will be gone with their cliques and nobody will remember this loser cross leveler.

Dearest God, i seek comforts and reassurance in the plans you already have for me and that everything will be fine. I pray earnestly to You, my mighty saviour that everything... Will be okie...

I just want you to know that i'm still praying and thinking about you... But i don't know what to help except to get out of your sights.
..... I don't suppose you remember anything good about me eh?

Runaway with my heart
Runaway with my hope
Runaway with my love
Runaway... When are you gonna stay?

I know i've been rather emo and touchy these days... But all i need is your understanding and a hug.

I'm looking onwards to You, my universe...
I'm seeking shelter under your feathered wings that everything will be okie...

Labels: emo, thoughts and reflection