Sunday, June 3, 2007
I'm not sure why, but i've feel pretty unlucky all my life. As in, i'm contented with what i have... I've a wonderful boyfriend, friends and family around me despite all the shits going on.
But shits happen to me so frequently.
People can complain and be as self center as they want but still having people to listen talking about themselves 24/7, but when i tried to vent my frustration, i won't have the same patience.
People can bitch about certain stuffs and having people to agree with them, but when i do it... People will say that i'm mean or i'll get into trouble.
I'm pretty scared. I feel like i can't be my true self without being mistaken.
It's just that... This is really just an opinion. Not a fact.
It's a really uncomfortable feeling... But i'm at a loss of how to tell people how i feel without being mistaken.
Okie sorry for making this entry all emo again. :/ But don't worry, i'm still very contented with what i have now.
Been quite awhile since i've last stepped into church ever since the prosecution period. I went to find Kai at church and even though i promised my Pa and myself that i won't go to church as long as he's around and i was really nervous, i really miss church alot.
There were people sharing their faith and experiences with God. And they came to the topic of being a christian in a non-christian family.
I wish i was as brave as them. There's nothing that's greater than God.
So what am i waiting for?
But whenever i think about the prosecution period, my heart ache so much.
I feel so distant from God each day... I've missed many of my daily devotional, and i go to sleep without praying.
I know you're here my Lord, i know.
Give me the courage and strength please.
Be with me...
Help me get down, i can make it.
The Great Singapore Sales is really making me soooo broke. Bah. I think i've already spend 100 bucks on myself already. Every break that i went during my shift at the Singapore Art Fest ended up with purchases. :( Hai. I really need to curb... Or at the very least stop spending money on myself... AHHHHHHH
I'm not sure why, but i've feel pretty unlucky all my life. As in, i'm contented with what i have... I've a wonderful boyfriend, friends and family around me despite all the shits going on.
But shits happen to me so frequently.
People can complain and be as self center as they want but still having people to listen talking about themselves 24/7, but when i tried to vent my frustration, i won't have the same patience.
People can bitch about certain stuffs and having people to agree with them, but when i do it... People will say that i'm mean or i'll get into trouble.
I'm pretty scared. I feel like i can't be my true self without being mistaken.
It's just that... This is really just an opinion. Not a fact.
It's a really uncomfortable feeling... But i'm at a loss of how to tell people how i feel without being mistaken.
Okie sorry for making this entry all emo again. :/ But don't worry, i'm still very contented with what i have now.
Been quite awhile since i've last stepped into church ever since the prosecution period. I went to find Kai at church and even though i promised my Pa and myself that i won't go to church as long as he's around and i was really nervous, i really miss church alot.
There were people sharing their faith and experiences with God. And they came to the topic of being a christian in a non-christian family.
I wish i was as brave as them. There's nothing that's greater than God.
So what am i waiting for?
But whenever i think about the prosecution period, my heart ache so much.
I feel so distant from God each day... I've missed many of my daily devotional, and i go to sleep without praying.
I know you're here my Lord, i know.
Give me the courage and strength please.
Be with me...
Au revoir
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