Monday, November 27, 2006
Haha. Too numb and empty to be sad now. Don't have the time to mourn anyway. but deep inside me i know my God wants me to stay calm and trust him. :)
It's always at times like this i really wish things wouldn't be this way.
When i have breaks and i don't know who to spend with when people just go away in their cliques.
When it comes to groupwork and all i can do is to wait and not very sure what's going on.
When i really wish to talk or hang out with my friends and there's somthing holding me back and telling me that they're not interested.
When i put in so much efforts but satan just keep damning me.
When i've did so so much for you but you don't even recongise my existance.
When you delete me away...
When i've try so hard to reach out to you, you know it, but you just think i'm not good enough.
When everything goes wrong and it affects my mood and the people around me.
Hai... I really know i'm blessed.
Blessed with my wonderful friends like the Tous.
Blessed with Kai.
Blessed with my Pa and Ab who came for me 1st when it happened.
Blessed with my most highest father above for keeping me calm.
But I wish that i could be more mature, to balance my God, personal life and studies more effciently.
I just wish for a more enjoyable experience in mass comm.
I just wish to be appreciated and cared in school.
I just wish i could show you the best of me, instead of this ugly me...
Take me deeper into your heart, Lord.
I really shouldn't blog now, seeing that i have class at 1pm, my feature story 1's due in another 6 hours and i have no interviewee for my story.
Haha. Too numb and empty to be sad now. Don't have the time to mourn anyway. but deep inside me i know my God wants me to stay calm and trust him. :)
It's always at times like this i really wish things wouldn't be this way.
When i have breaks and i don't know who to spend with when people just go away in their cliques.
When it comes to groupwork and all i can do is to wait and not very sure what's going on.
When i really wish to talk or hang out with my friends and there's somthing holding me back and telling me that they're not interested.
When i put in so much efforts but satan just keep damning me.
When i've did so so much for you but you don't even recongise my existance.
When you delete me away...
When i've try so hard to reach out to you, you know it, but you just think i'm not good enough.
When everything goes wrong and it affects my mood and the people around me.
Hai... I really know i'm blessed.
Blessed with my wonderful friends like the Tous.
Blessed with Kai.
Blessed with my Pa and Ab who came for me 1st when it happened.
Blessed with my most highest father above for keeping me calm.
But I wish that i could be more mature, to balance my God, personal life and studies more effciently.
I just wish for a more enjoyable experience in mass comm.
I just wish to be appreciated and cared in school.
I just wish i could show you the best of me, instead of this ugly me...
Labels: beloved God, emo
Au revoir
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