Wednesday, August 22, 2007

I need YOU to love me.

Dear Father,

Why, why are You still here with me?
Didn't You see what I've done?
In my shame I want to run and hide myself
But it's here I see the truth
I don't deserve You

I, I have wasted so much time
Pushing You away from me
I just never saw how You could cherish me
'Cause You're a God who has all things
And still You want me

But I need You to love me, and I
I won't keep my heart from You this time
And I'll stop this pretending that I can
Somehow deserve what I already have
I need You to love me

Your love makes me forget what I have been
Your love makes me see who I really am
Your love makes me forget what I have been

So a new chapter of my life has just begin. Okie not yet, I think i'm the only one who's still slacking at home, staying online all day. :/ Bahh. But I've been writing and sending lotsa resume and calling up countless of companies. I'm currently in the process of preparing for my next 'journey'.

What i really want ahead? I've a vague idea. I know i wanna work in H.I.M, but i hate PR position.
I want to work in recording studios, where music is born. But i'm even having problems with Dalet. *shudder*
I know i want to continue developing photos and stay as near as the photography industry. But i do not want to be a photographer... Yet.
I want to further my studies, i want to study in NTU just like Fang and May. But my GPA and financial status tell me not.

But IT'S OKIE! I'm counting on grace. I'm just praying everyday for Father's grace to navigate me through this whole new journey.

Your love makes me forget what I have been

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