Wednesday, July 18, 2007
Is there a hate/irritate isabel day?
Why does everyone just love to criticise, vent anger or disturb me, even though it isn't my fault?
Be it at home, at work or even with my very own friends.
Where is the peace?
God.... Is it me? If so just point it out, i'll try my best to change it.
But if it's your little mood swing routine then can you please fucking stop it because i'm you're causing my mood swing too, damn it.
Why does everybody have to do this to me? Are you trying to tell me how insignificant i am?
I really don't understand... It's making me so suicidal.
I blasted my Christian songs through my earphones, and i started reading the secrets in post secret sg...
1 of them said:
There are days that i wanna die so that i can see who comes to my funeral.
Then I'd know those are the people who really truly love me.
And then they'll know how much they'll miss me.
Now, I'm nobody to anybody in the whole world.
I was feeling relief and heartache-y when i saw that. Because finally... Somebody feel that way too.
Only difference is even if my whole world collapse, i'm still a somebody to God. I hope.
I gotta admit to habour such thoughts, not sparing a thought for the people who truly care or love.
But then again. Who started it 1st...?
I miss kai so much.
Do you want forgiveness?
I really don't understand...
Why does everyone just love to criticise, vent anger or disturb me, even though it isn't my fault?
Be it at home, at work or even with my very own friends.
Where is the peace?
God.... Is it me? If so just point it out, i'll try my best to change it.
Why does everybody have to do this to me? Are you trying to tell me how insignificant i am?
I really don't understand... It's making me so suicidal.
I blasted my Christian songs through my earphones, and i started reading the secrets in post secret sg...
1 of them said:
There are days that i wanna die so that i can see who comes to my funeral.
Then I'd know those are the people who really truly love me.
And then they'll know how much they'll miss me.
Now, I'm nobody to anybody in the whole world.
I was feeling relief and heartache-y when i saw that. Because finally... Somebody feel that way too.
Only difference is even if my whole world collapse, i'm still a somebody to God. I hope.
Oh yes, I know this tension that you speak of
We're in the palm of a hand making a fist
It'd be best for one of us to speak up
But we prefer to pretend it does not exist
And you can't see past the blood on my hands
To see that you've been aptly damned
To fail and fail again
Cause we're all guilty of the same things
We think the thoughts whether or not we see them through
And I know that I have been forgiven
And I just hope you can forgive me too
So don't you dare blame me for
Prying open the door
Let's unleash the bitterness
That's here in the midst of this
Sometimes we live for no one but ourselves
And what we've been striving for
Has turned into nothing more
Than bodies limp on the floor
Victims of falling short
We kiss goodbye the cheek of our true love
Relient K - Forgiven.
I gotta admit to habour such thoughts, not sparing a thought for the people who truly care or love.
But then again. Who started it 1st...?
I miss kai so much.
Labels: emo
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