Sorry to traumatize you.
Today's is Valentine's Day and the time now is 5:13Am and i just woke up.
SERIOUSLY... I'm getting my biological clock all wrong. -_- Kept sleeping at the wrong time, otherwise, couldn't sleep at all. Ahh.
Had my Media Law exam yesterday and i seriously think that i've under-answered those questions. Hai. Hate the feeling of haveing no one to talk/discuss with about the exam questions once the exam was over. Everybody just left with their own cliques of friends and i'm jus eagarly to leave first so it won't seem so lonely for me. But this person (who has been traumatizing me for year 2 with his 'spare-tyre' treatment) just had to suddenly get himself involved with me when he's alone and ignore me when he found company again.
My mind was constantly screaming: God give me strength give me strength give me strength and i tried to blast myself with loud music and walk as fast as i could but i just HAD to wear my stupid heels yesterday and nearly fell down a couple of times.
But the day went on better at Kai's. Thank you God!
Was in a freaking emo mood these days too, and it's really making me... really, useless. I kept having this loser feeling and my self esteem of myself is truly lousy (not that it has been really good in the first place anyway). Oh well, so i decided to visited May and Yan's workplace at J8 on Monday. I wanted to get myself a fish burger for dinner and a couple of pens for the exam and it totally went out of control. I bought:
- A tube and pants from Ebase costing 42 freaking bucks.
- 2 kiddie bedsheet for annabel and i because they're on sale.
- a handphone pouch for Kai
And it all started with a fish burger and a couple of pens. -______-
The above is such a emo and sadist entry. Lol i'm sorry.
Like i've said earlier.. Today's V Day, and i'm not sure why but this time, i'm not exactly anitcipating for it. Perhaps because i feel that V day is not as important as compared to anniversary or maybe i'm just used to not getting any Valentine's Day gifts... But this time, i'm especially emotionless for V day. Sure i'll like to receive flowers or gifts *hint hint* :p, but still... it still feels like a mundane day for me. There's this saying: "everyday can be a Valentine's day" and i think it's very true. you don't really have to show your affection on V day, but of cause, you should be doing extra affection for V day. But just a simple flower can do, one stalk also can lah.
Okie now i'm contradicting myself. Maybe it's the exam mood affecting me, perhaps the fact that i can't eat too much chocolate or my teeth will be threatening to rebel, or it could be my emo-ness? AHHH this is so irritating. T_T
Now it's 5:43Am and i better go back to MASINA. The amount of stuffs to study and research is truly horrifying and i just had nightmares about it. Father God bless me please!
And heipi Valentine's Day my dearest Kai dear. Thank you for being so so patient and nice with me and i really look forward to see you in a few more hours, and to our future. I love my polar bear. Heh heh heh.
Heipi Valentine's Day to my beloved Father and saviour Jesus, as well as to my friends (Tous especially, really love you guys) and families. :D
Labels: emo, festival, thoughts and reflection
Au revoir
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