Tuesday, February 20, 2007
For the 1st time of my life, i'm driven to do spring cleaning for CNY and devoted myself to do spring cleaning for 3 days. My pa's been nagging for days about us neglecting the household, so i really wish he'll be proud of me.
CNY evening, the cleaning's finally done. We just have to sit back and enjoy the new year. But Satan, the scheming devil just have to make my pa spot my cross necklace and question my religion.
I've been trying to prepare myself for this day, but never have i expect it to come on that day. i admitted, and my pa took it very badly. He became extremely hostile the entire 2 day and was blinded by Satan's malice.
I couldn't take it either. I can't bear to deny my Father above, i can't bear to deny my saviour who's been there for me all the time. Even if i could lie, how long can i hide? Just how long? Why? Why must it come at such a time? With all my hard work wasted. i know my pa loves me, but why? Why did he curse and turn me away? Am i such a bad daughter?
I couldn't control my tears when i was at my granny house and cried. My pa got angrier and scolded both Ab and i. I kept praying, praying for a solution, praying for the angels to calm my pa down.
Many of my relatives helped. My christian aunt came into the room and tell me of the 'prosecution' period that she and my another aunt have went through. She cried and i couldn't help and cried again.
After awhile all of us calmed down and the situation got better. Nonetheless there's this huge gap between my pa and i now.
As i'm reading my daily devotionals which i've been neglecting for days now, i realised my Father has actually been preparing me for it.
Romans 8:38-39
I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither present nor the future, nor powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is ours in Christ Jesus our Lord.
Romans 8:35-37
Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or sword? No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us.
1 John 4:10
This is love: not that we loved God but that he loved us and sent his Son as an atoning sacrifice for our sins.
My aunt said that i oughta prepare myself for this route when i've decided on my religion for it's going to be a harsh one, or at least in my family. This route... filled with malice and threats from Satan, is my route to my beloved Father. Please my lord, i beg for your grace, love and spirit... Be with me always.
i can't help but feel so hurt looking at the damages between me and my pa now. I just pray that my pa would understand how much i look up and love him...
prosecution.
The 'prosecution' has finally begin.
For the 1st time of my life, i'm driven to do spring cleaning for CNY and devoted myself to do spring cleaning for 3 days. My pa's been nagging for days about us neglecting the household, so i really wish he'll be proud of me.
CNY evening, the cleaning's finally done. We just have to sit back and enjoy the new year. But Satan, the scheming devil just have to make my pa spot my cross necklace and question my religion.
I've been trying to prepare myself for this day, but never have i expect it to come on that day. i admitted, and my pa took it very badly. He became extremely hostile the entire 2 day and was blinded by Satan's malice.
I couldn't take it either. I can't bear to deny my Father above, i can't bear to deny my saviour who's been there for me all the time. Even if i could lie, how long can i hide? Just how long? Why? Why must it come at such a time? With all my hard work wasted. i know my pa loves me, but why? Why did he curse and turn me away? Am i such a bad daughter?
I couldn't control my tears when i was at my granny house and cried. My pa got angrier and scolded both Ab and i. I kept praying, praying for a solution, praying for the angels to calm my pa down.
Many of my relatives helped. My christian aunt came into the room and tell me of the 'prosecution' period that she and my another aunt have went through. She cried and i couldn't help and cried again.
After awhile all of us calmed down and the situation got better. Nonetheless there's this huge gap between my pa and i now.
As i'm reading my daily devotionals which i've been neglecting for days now, i realised my Father has actually been preparing me for it.
Romans 8:38-39
I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither present nor the future, nor powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is ours in Christ Jesus our Lord.
Romans 8:35-37
Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or sword? No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us.
1 John 4:10
This is love: not that we loved God but that he loved us and sent his Son as an atoning sacrifice for our sins.
My aunt said that i oughta prepare myself for this route when i've decided on my religion for it's going to be a harsh one, or at least in my family. This route... filled with malice and threats from Satan, is my route to my beloved Father. Please my lord, i beg for your grace, love and spirit... Be with me always.
i can't help but feel so hurt looking at the damages between me and my pa now. I just pray that my pa would understand how much i look up and love him...
Labels: beloved God, festival
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