Tuesday, January 1, 2008

Pull your ear

Fresh from oven!
My new year resolution/ birthday wishes:

To be more thick-skinned / more confidence / optimistic
To speak my mind more
To get socialise better with people
To wake up on time and try not to be late (half completed, i think)
Really, just better friendships, relationships with people, and especially with God.
And to be a better and more mature person
To attend church with my dad's permission
To save more money and not spend so much on shopping
A more peaceful / smoother life
A holiday trip to Thailand or Taiwan
A diamond cross necklace... Only reason being i wanna act mature but i reckon i won't wear it anyway.
Maybe a Nikon D40x? But i can't bear to leave my Maa, Mee and Moo.
Or a Nintendo DS... But i'll probably play with it only when others are playing with their handheld games so i won't feel that left out.
A more colourful personality / mind.
Perhaps a self-help book to help myself. Damn sad ar.

To do list:

Cut that pile of moss on my head the way i like it and have it hightlighted with blue streaks!
Do a make over photoshoot before my 21st birthday (time's running out)
Diet
Replenish my wardrobe!
Re-paint and re-layout my room.

Find myself really emo and sensitive lately... Kinda sick of myself crying to almost everything...
Not having the Christmas, New Year and my upcoming birthday the way i wanted them to be.
Not being able to join Ab for Thailand trip. It's weird not having my twin around for birthday. I'm so depressed that i started tearing up when Kai and i had Thai food the other day.
Not being acknowledge but yet misunderstood..

Anyway i caught the last sunset of 2007 and it's breath-taking. Wish i brought Mee out. And as Kai and i rode past Ngee Ann, with the sunset at its background, it feels to me like God's trying to tell me something, but i can't really figure it out... Okie sorry random.

So... Sorry, i know you guys didn't want it this way, but i didn't have a choice either. I've been trying to prevent this stupid emotions but ended up making the situation even worst.

Bottom line: I'll try to get used to all these ~~disappointments~~ part and parcels of life and not over-react.

Heipi new year pull your ear!

Labels: thoughts and reflection