Monday, December 31, 2007

of imgainary streamers, poppers, firework...

i still can't believe that 2008 will be arriving in less than 24 hours.
Where did time go to?
It feels like yesterday that i'm anticipating for Christmas and poof... It's gone.

Usually i'll be putting up my Christmas and birthday wishlist and give my dear Tous a major hint on what i want.
Perhaps because i've started working and could sometimes splurge abit on whatever i want, i can't really come up with a wishlist this year.
Or perhaps because whatever i want can't be bought with money...

Just feeling abit jaded sometimes, because i can't even have the simple pleasure of life such as having lasting friendships from the people i care so so much, or expressing myself well at work, or getting along well with people, or just having Christmas or birthday celebration the way i've always imagined it.

And poof, my 21st birthday's approaching and i still feel like i've yet to grow up.
I need more time!!!

I'm not trying to complain or blame anyone, honestly, all i'm trying to do is wonder about the outcome and what can i do about it because i'm downright disappointed, if you can see!

I hate to do this but, i really need to declare that whatever written on my blog are purely my thoughts and feelings, and they're never meant to be used as a weapon to insult or make anyone feel guilty. This's my hiding space and in case you didn't know hardly anyone know about the existance of my blog... So please can we not jump into conclusion and just pray for peace? And i'm not pointing at anyone ya? *peace*

God will you please guide me?

Anyway... here's a self-reflection for myself for the year of 2007:

Gotten my very first lomo fisheye camera, Moo, from Kai for my 20th birthday and spend almost 1/4 of my money on films and developing cost. -_-
Gotten into a bike accident with Kai that almost scare me shitless.
Had my very 1st 'prosecution' and the worst CNY ever.
Kai enlisted to NS.
Lost and found friendships... And one was lost again.
Took up photo journalism, spend almost every weekend visiting cemeteries and was utterly stressed up with my photos and Charlie, but was pretty satisfied by the final outcome. Hee.
Joined Heatwave for attachment, had the best time in Ngee Ann and better web design skills.
Got rid of my old lappy and gotten myself a new black macbook! Which also leave me in debt with my pa now.
Finally completed my 3 years of course in Ngee Ann!
Dearest Fang and May enrolled to NTU and had a great time staying over in their hostel.
Which leave me really clueless about my future studying plan because i don't think i can ever got into NTU and there's no way i can go for oversea study...
Gotten my 'dream job', and there's still a long tedious way to go...
Don't mean to boast... But meeting Fahrenheit, Tank and Xing Guang 4 Shao in person is really... speechless!
Friendships that has grown up with me since young, started to fall apart...
Feeling kinda lost, and distance... especially to God.
Gotten my 2nd lomo baby, Mee the green supersampler! wahahaha.
At the end of the year, i'm still pretty glad to have my beloved Tous and Kai by my side always...

Whew.
In a few hours time i'll be spending my countdown at Jurong IMM working for a Fahrenheit event so feel free to drop by if you've nothing on ya?
Heipi 2008 everyone, and i really pray for a bless year ahead...

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